有一种思念叫做不联系

有时候，你很想念一个人，但你不会给他打电话，
因为打电话给他，对方冷冷的一句“喂”
会让你不知说什么好，也会让你挂电话时更失落。
还是不打比较好，发个信息吧
但又害怕对方不回信息

要不，就算回了也就简短到让人心疼的一个“哦”
有时候晚上驾车时，很想找个人聊一聊，却找不到对象，那是骗人的
因为她其实很想念你，但又不敢说出口。
但一旦打了，就会后悔刚才的动作，因为你的一句“不得空”，让她显得更低落。
虽然她明白，其实你真的很忙。这样一来，以后要打给你时，会让她先三思而后行。
想打电话给曾最爱的人，但不曾爱过她的人，而且还伤害她最深的人，
不是害怕说些什么好，而是害怕对方一看见自己的名字，就盖电话了。
因为害怕对方觉得反感，觉得自己死缠烂打。

其实她只是突然想起他。
很想听到他的声音，等听到了他的声音
也许就是另一回事了
想像中的一切
往往比现实美好些
想念中的那个人 也比现实中的可人些
思念好像是遥远
有时偏偏感觉很亲近
可电话的那一头，MSN的那一边
又好像很飘渺

其实
不联络不代表不思念
有时正因为想念所以才不联系
因为想念而不知该说些什么
所以，距离不=分离，没联系不=忘记，没通电话不=冷落，没见面不=不关心
仍然被那简单的那三个字所感动: 我想你

I'm tired.

assignment assignment assignment!
goshhh.. when can i finish all these blardyyy assignments!?
and i'm sick for almost a week.
fever, flu, cough, sore throat.. all sickness come to me at the same time.
feel like banging my head to the wall and faint for few days.
Public Speaking - Individual Assign + Group Assign
English for Mass Comm - Group Assign
Communication Law - Group Assign
PR Strategies & Tools - Fundraising Events
Basic Photography - Exercises
WTH. there's so many things that i need to do!
i'm tired. i'm exhausted. seriously, i need some rest.
MoodWentBlueeeeeeee..


To "You":
.evol ym eybdoog .em deen regnol on uoy ,ereht revo enif er'uoy ekil smees ?huh tol a degnahc dah uoy

To "You":
.regnarts eybdoog .yaw ym og i ,yaw ruoy og uoy .eromyna sdneirf regnol on era ew .su fo htob rof dne eht s'taht sseug i

To "You":
..yrrow t'nod ,flesym fo erac ekat lliw i .ti etaicerppa yllaer .emit eht lla em ynapmocca rof sknaht

To "Me":
.lrig ,gnorts yats .em ot tseb eht lla .sffuts ruoy ni kcul doog


❤ airplanes
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now..

Loves.

i saw a post from a girl's wall in Facebook
it's about her dad.
her dearest daddy just passed away on Monday
i noticed that she had updated her blog
so i clicked into the link to have a look.
when i read her blog,
tears start rolling down my cheeks
and i couldn't stop it.
i felt sad for her
but there's nothing that i can do.
although we don't know each other
my deepest condolences
to you and your family.
stay strong girl,
you can do it.
at the same time,
i'm wondering
what if the same thing happens to me?
what can i do?
what should i do?
i have no idea at all..
i don't wish that day will come.
people out there,
please appreciate what you have right now.
of course, i'm telling myself too.
frannie low, please appreciate.
appreciate everything
that daddy or mammy did for you.
i don't wanna regret someday.


Dear Daddy and Mammy, ILoveYou forever.
and ThankYou for everything.
FAMILY stands for
Father and Mother, I Love You. (:

Get high.

FridayNight@MistClub

its time to party! (;
Last night, celebrated Jaron, Jason and Kenny's burfday @ Mist Club, Bangsar. once we reached, we sat there and chit chat since its still early for us to drink and dance. aku amat regret to club with those couples one. Jason and Jaron with their girls, Nana with her boy. Wth, couple everywhere! -_- Vernee and i had no choice but to stick with each other whole night, pity us. i did not feel envy, its better to stay single cause i can do anything that i want. SomeOne told me its boring to club with bf/gf, too hard to curi makan. LOL. SingleRocks! "All the single ladies, all the single ladies. Now put your hands up, oh, oh, oh!"


after i drank few glasses of liquor, my mind starts telling me that its time to get high, so we went off to the dance floor. hawt, packed, dizzy and high was the only things i can think of that time. Dance dance and danced non-stop, from dance floor up to stage, back to dance floor again. we went all over the club, wooootsss! ImmaFuckingHighTonight. "I wanna see you Move Move Shake Shake Now Drop. Move Move Shake Shake Now Drop Drop Drop DROP!"


I saw a beautiful girl on the stage. the way she move, she dance, she smile caught my attention. too bad i didnt get the chance to know her, no one wanna accompany me to go up the stage. aiksssssss. im definitely going Mist again, wait for me babe. CrazyForYou. "I'm tryna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful. Damn girl, Damn you're a Sexy Chick."


Burfday boys ain't drunk last night. the Champion of the night - Eric Low. he was so-damn-drunk until he fall asleep beside the road, drunk ass. LMAO. i drank pure liquor whole night but i didnt get drunk. praise me pleaseeeee! ngek ngek. Overall was okay. and i kinda like it, Get-Highhhhhh! LoveInThisClub. "Blame it on the pop, blame it on the dance, blame it on the rock and roll. Blame it on the feeling of the music deep insi-i-i-de your soul!"

3\> .niap eht dnats nac i, eromyna das eb ot ton gniyrt m'i

No, please.

if you just wanna ask help from me, no please.
if you just wanna find me for nothing, no please.
if you just wanna know whats happening, no please.
if you just wanna disturb me, no please.
if you just wanna see me cry, no please.
if you just wanna make fun of me, no please.
if you just wanna fool me around, no please.
if you just wanna act that you care, no please.
if you just wanna hurt me badly, fuck off please.
if you don't even willing to talk to me, why talk?
if the way you talk still remain that way, why talk?
i would appreciate it so much if you just shut up and disappear.
i wont give a damn anymore.



if you really want to chat with me, yes please. =)

.dnatsrednu tond i

.em ot klat tsal uoy ecnis ,syad wef a neeb sti
?em llet uoy nac ?gnineppah stahw
.ti ekat t'ndluoc i dna, erofeb morf tnereffid yllatot em ot klat uoy yaw eht
.tol a snaem ti, em rof tub, uoy ot gnihton snaem ti ebyam
.won sregnarts ekil erew ew, ylkciuq os degnahc gnihtyreve
?YHW dna yhw yhw ..yhw
.esaelp nosaer eno tsuj , nosaer yna ?nosaer a em llet uoy nac
.oot raeppasid ylneddus uoy dna ,reappa ylneddus uoy
?taht ekil em taert uoy od yhw ?uoy htiw gnorw stahw
.em ot siht gniod era uoy tey dna ,ti wenk uoy ,em gnirongi elpoep ekilsid i
.derob leef uoy nehw htiw yalp ot uoy rof yot a ?uoy rof yot a tsuj i ma
.ti htiw derob er'uoy nehw yawa ti pmud uoy dna
.nwod os gnileef mi ?em gniloof uoy era
.sgnileef siht etah gnikcuf ,hgis



3/< .ton mi yllautca ..tub ,eno liaceps eht mi thguoht i

i miss my hair.

every time i did something to my hair, i'm sure i will regret.

and yes, aku memang sedang regret sekarang.
but no choice, my hair was superb messy, superb curly, superb dry, superb cacat.
i have no choice but to go for a hair cut.
i had my hair cut today, and i straighten it too.
conclusion: time to wear my beanie again! =D
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my hair! sudah pendek lar.. T.T


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focus my hair, not my face.


bye bye cacat hair.


this is called no eye see.

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i wanna buy i wanna buy these!

cotton on - chiong zhao sam.


but mama said: macam pyjamas lar wei. o.o


i like this too. it looks nice.


but mama said: aduhh you look like kayu, too thin. zzz.


p/s: i will never cut my hair again. dear hairhair, can you grow faster please?

;(

it's two o'clock midnight.
today was a busy day, studied whole day. and i still have to continue my assignment after class.
sigh, reached home around 1am. but i'm not sleepy yet.
i'm sitting infront of my pc, staring at the screen and do nothing.
since i don't feel like sleeping, so i decided to blog.
but.. what to write? my brain was blank.
blank...
blank.....
blank.......
blank.........
and blank...........




i have a feeling that everything is no longer the same.
and i'm no longer that me anymore.
something had changed, something went wrong, something became different.
i... couldn't tell what's going on.




can we bring yesterday back around? cause i know how i feel about you now.