I care.

many things can happen within a week. it should be a happy weekend, but some small changes can just ruin your mood. sometimes when you knew about something, its hard for you to act like nothing happen. you've got no idea what you should do, what respond to give, what feeling to have, what expression to show. try not to think about it? act like you dont care? its really hard to act like you dont care when you really care.
there are things that i wish not to change. im trying my best to remain the same, i want it to be the same forever, but i cant control whats happening. if its fated to change, the only thing that i can do is to accept it, although im not willing to do so.
just wanna tell you. i do care, i care a lot. perhaps i might change? please dont get mad at me, maybe i got my own reason.. but i do value our friendship. i aint cold blooded human. im not like those kind of people, hurt someone and yet they can pretend like nothing happen before. no i cant..

当你很刻意不去注意他，反而会越来越在意。