Belongs To Me

The Truth.

2011-12-07T10:52:00.000+08:00

近来知道了一些事情，不知道是好还是坏。

事情和我没有关系，还是不要插手比较好。

有时候不懂得内容反而对自己好，后悔了。

但有时候知道了，就看清楚他人的真面目。

要假装什么也没发生过，还真的考倒了我。

嘴里说不介意，但心里明明就介意得半死。

伪装，我那真正的心情。

假装，我那虚伪的表情。

p/s: 真的，快疯掉了。

Dead.

2011-11-08T02:55:00.000+08:00

My blog is dead, ohmigee. :O

dont blame me for not updating, cause i got nth to write. ciaoz~ :)

Sob.

2011-08-19T18:32:00.000+08:00

seriously got no mood to study.. well i guess everyone has the same feeling too. im trying my best to memorize everything.. brain oh brain, please function well. this is my last semester in diploma and i dont want to ruin everything~ god bless me. amen!

FC you sux! you're killing me badly. x(

心，在呐喊。

2011-08-17T03:23:00.000+08:00

today, is not my day.

早上起来，发觉到黑莓手机有点不对劲。

它的荧幕，只看得见一种颜色，一片白。

棒透了，竟然在最重要的时刻宣告死亡。

当下真的彻底无言，好想一手把它砸烂。

我承认，我的生活里离不开任何电子器。

考试即将到来，脑袋里任然处于空白状态。

不到最后一分钟，感觉不到有任何的压力。

睡眠不足，体力不足，能量不足，时间不足。

身体不断发出虚弱的讯号，alert alert...

现在的时间，正是凌晨三点二十二分。

今天的日期，正是面临考试的前一天。

目前的情绪，正是忐忑不安的焦虑着。

- ends -

羊咩咩，欢迎来到，属于我的部落格。 :)

Insanity.

2011-08-07T15:41:00.001+08:00

好讨厌这样的心情。真的觉得自己心里还蛮变态的。我不懂得如何形容它，彻底讨厌。他妈的，我真的快发狂了。

Tee-hee.

2011-08-06T03:38:00.000+08:00

its 3.31am now, currently skype-ing with one of my friend, yangmehmeh~ :P

the end. xoxo.

感性。

2011-06-29T15:28:00.004+08:00

这几天都忙着同样一个assignment，真的不简单。承认自己超讨厌这一个项目，我完全不了它。没办法，始终还是得面对现实。礼拜五就得交上去了，希望可以尽快赶完。干啊！！！为了赶功课，没什么时间陪陪家人，也没有帮忙做家务。哎唷，不孝女。._. 今天爸帮我打包了午餐，他说：你忙你的吧，我帮你弄好饭，你一边做一边吃。虽然是很普通的一件事，却很感动，十分感动！之后，传了封简讯给他：谢谢你的午餐，我爱你。

这个post并没什么特别，纯粹想表达我现在的心情。
爸妈妹，你们是最棒的。呵呵。

So Called Selfish.

2011-06-16T19:25:00.002+08:00

现在的自己，真的有很想揍人的冲动。怎么可以做事只顾着自己？难道别人的就不重要吗？

还以为会成熟一点，想法会跟别人不一样。可是到头来，怎么还是自私鬼一个。不必猜测，如果觉得是你，那就是你。我不隐瞒我的不爽，就是特地写出来的。如果觉得是我在无理取闹，坦白的说出来。如果真的是我错，我会承认。最好说些有说服力的理由，要不然，我会对你不客气。要无视我也可以，你喜欢。那我先道个歉，因为你必须再看到我那张臭脸。

注：在说别人之前，看下你自己哪里需要改进吧！我不否认，我也一样。可是我有勇气承认，有勇气说出口，你有吗？

My Love.

2011-04-18T19:49:00.000+08:00

walaoyeh, thats the first time i totally forgot about my blog until my friend mentioned about it. seriously.. forgot. well its my holiday now and im enjoying it. no hangouts, no clubs, no movies, no dramas. guess what am i doing in this holiday?

tadaa, Maple Story Dual Blade!

wokayy, please dont get mad at me. i know its stupid to waste time on games, but still, im addicted. LOL! currently chiong-ing to 3rd job asap. hehe. :D

by the way, streamyx technician came over and changed my modem. papa had upgraded it to 4meg. mmg cantik sekali. :D:D:D

p/s: i love single ladies.

Hard.

2011-03-19T18:29:00.002+08:00

trying my best to change, but its so freaking hard.

its not that easy to change your own personality.

i guess that's me, the real me.

sigh to the max.

just realize, i dont even know what i want.

WHO AM I?

So So.

2011-03-07T22:39:00.004+08:00

went to Milk Club @ Bangsar on last saturday, which is located next to Mist Club. it was my first time there and my comment was, Milk so small only ahh? lols. it is small compare to other club, they should expand it so that we got more space to dance! overall of that night was still okay. at least i had fun with my friends. i miss the smell of alcohol, i miss dancing on the dance floor, i miss parties, i miss every happy moments. can i club more often? fyi, DJ Miss Yellow will be at Mist Club on 18th of March!

today's our group presentation which we had to present infront of all DPR2 students. i was freaking nervous while i present, i can feel my leg shaking non-stop. luckily everything went on smoothly, tee-hee. :D its already week 4, time pass so damn fast huh? few more weeks and we have to face final exams again. boys and gals, good luck!


This is DJ Miss Yellow

p/s: trying to reach out to you, touch my hand.

Leaving.

2011-03-01T23:46:00.001+08:00

才发觉身边的人，已慢慢的离开了。

只剩下自己，逗留在原地。

到底，我的终点在哪里？

再怎么改变，我始终是我。

Pissed Off.

2011-02-26T18:52:00.000+08:00

spent whole day doing my assignments! superb boring!

im bored with it. feel like throwing everything into the dustbin!

going for movie with nan ren later! i need a break seriously..

DAMN!

stop giving excuse please, im sick of it.

So What.

2011-02-24T17:30:00.002+08:00

im late to class today, its not that i did it purposely. well something happened, so.. im late. =| when i got in the class, OMFGWTH. YMY! she's our tutor for malaysian culture? i dislike her, whoever is in the same class with me knew that. a little bit of face problem, and the main reason is because of her attitude. one word to describe, annoying. i still remembered she said: "You Dont Purplely Chaaaa-llenge Me Ah!" LMAO. i know my english is not good, but at least, im better than her. after class, we went canteen 1 to have our lunch. the food there.. ewwww, not nice. i wonder how canteen 1 survive with those yucky food. L for loser.

some webcam pic with muh sister.

Alien Jia

Joey The Alien

Big Head Queen

We Rocks!


Normal pic

we may not look nice, but this is my blog.

haters, click the x button up there.

thanks. :D

就算不是白雪公主，也可以过着幸福的日子。

Unsatisfied.

2011-02-24T00:17:00.001+08:00

didnt went to school today due to fever and sore throat. stupid sore throat made me sleepless whole night! its fucking pain and i couldnt really talk. dammit. luckily i had recovered after taking some medicines, hehe. :D oh ya, today's DPR2 students big day. why? RESULTS! im fucking nervous while im waiting for the website to load. everyone busying checking their results and TARC website end up superb laggyyyyyyy. im not satisfied with my results at all! so disappointed loh! seriously i put lots of effort compare to other semesters, but idk why the hell i got this kind of results. suffering in memorizing, reading, blablabla.. so speechless. SIGH~ forget it. something happened in these few days and it seriously affected my mood. what i did? why all these bullshyts thingy happened on me? just go with the flow, frannie jia.

Mist night.

男人所说的话，不能轻易相信。

So In Love.

2011-02-11T15:58:00.000+08:00

Baby Good Night by GD/TOP

this is one of my favourite song, keep repeating this song like 174629172 times.

T.O.P's so fucking handsome with his current hair style, im so in love with him.

would you be my valentine?

原来，我认识的他，那么的出名。

Rock Star.

2011-01-19T15:49:00.001+08:00

finally! im enjoying my holidays now, woots~

my friend told me she was worrying bout her result, cause all of us didnt really did our best in exams.

me? i dont care lah woi! i just wanna party kaokao right now! wyeeeee~ xD

clubclubclub, moviemoviemovie, chiongkchiongkchiongk, shopshopshop!

a short post for today, gonna continue my drama series! ciaoz.

HAPPY HOLIDAY TO ALL TARC-IANS! ENJOY! :D

Half Way Gone.

2011-01-10T21:30:00.002+08:00

went to college and sit for my PNP paper today. i felt disappointed, fcuking sad. those questions that i aimed didnt come out at all! WTF. got no idea how to answer the moment i read the questions. what to do? just crap it. -_- its over now, fail then fail lah! resit then resit lah! i already tried my best.. ): not going to study tonight, gonna sleep kaokao relax kaokao play kaokao first! lack of rest seriously.. CB paper on this thursday, should be more easier compare to previous paper. *its "Consumer Behavior", not chibai subject. =x

countdown 5days! holiday coming soon~ xD

加油，我对自己说。

Study Mode.

2011-01-03T20:10:00.001+08:00

Everyone is enjoying their new year and holidays.

but me? am suffering from final exam, again.

arghhhhhh.. i hate exams! why moral? why public opinion and persuasion?
WHYYYYYYYY DIM GAIIIIIII? ):

haihhhhh.. 15/01 come faster pleaseeeeeeeeee..

i mau mahjong with my jimui and nan ren!

studyyyyyyy timeeeeeeee. ciaoz!

Happy New Year.

2011-01-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

say goodbye to 2010, and say hi to 2011.

its a brand new year starting from today onwards.

all the best to all of us! cheers~ :D

:)

2010-12-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

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For You, For Me. For Him, For Her.

2010-12-04T02:20:00.011+08:00

好多好多的烦恼，好多好多的感触，好多好多的疑问。这一切，不断不断的重复着。

有时候心情会莫名的低落，不想说任何话，也不想出去，只想好好地静一静。

不要想太多，你总这样说。不是故意要想太多，只是你所做的一切，总是会让人想太多。

只是纯粹的友情，只是单纯的关系。既然这么不信任，那干脆分手好了。

一称体重我就很不开心，不开心的时候我就想吃东西。

在残酷的现实里，要学会独立坚强。社会的法则：强者生存，弱者败亡。

不要自大，不要耍帅，在别人的眼里，你只不过是个路人甲。

不必为了一个人而把自己糟蹋得不像人样。没有他，你没问题。没有了他，更加不是问题。

对于现实，除了面对，我们别无选择。

回忆，是痛苦的甜蜜。

你快乐所以我快乐，让你快乐才会使我快乐。我为你快乐而快乐，你的快乐才是我永远的快乐。

爱情正是一个将一对陌生人变成情侣，又将一对情侣变成陌生人的游戏。

不曾心碎过的人，不会有爱别人的能力。

在乎的人不明白，明白的人不在乎。

男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了；女人哭了，是因为她真的放弃了。

女人的眼泪是最无用的液体，但你让女人流泪说明你很无用。

如果你不爱了，那就请你放开。

让女人念念不忘的是感情，让男人念念不忘的是感觉。

和你一同笑过的人，你可能把他忘了，但是和你一同哭过的人，你却永远不会忘。

你会流泪，并不代表真的慈悲；我会微笑，并不代表一切都好。

什么叫快乐？就是掩饰自己的悲伤对每个人微笑。

如果没办法忘记他，就不要忘记好了。真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。

如果我们不能在一起，那么说明我们没有缘分。既然没有缘分，那么不能在一起也没什么好遗憾的。

看别人不顺眼，是自己修养不够。

可以不认同，但要学会尊重。

要么忍，要么残忍。

你的话，我连标点符号都不信。

MSN的在线率越高，证明这个人越寂寞。

找不到我喜欢的伞，我宁愿淋雨。

不爱说实话，不爱听实话。

幸好爱情不是一切，幸好一切都不是爱情。

这世界上有两个我，一个假装快乐，一个真心难过。

我不要求什么，并不代表我不在乎什么。

没有男朋友的人每个晚上都是有时间的。

如果你相信命，那么一切的偶然都是注定；如果你不相信命，那么一切的注定都是偶然。

只见新人笑，不闻旧人哭。

一时的好感，不代表喜欢。

To You.

2010-12-01T00:20:00.002+08:00

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说了再见。

2010-11-30T23:16:00.002+08:00

如果上天赐我一个愿望，我的愿望会是，

希望我们可以永远维持着这样的关系。

不需要理会别人的眼光，

我想和你在一起。

不必在意别人所说的话，

我要我们在一起。

我知道，我只能在梦里拥有你。

多希望能够永远都沉睡在梦里，

因为我想从残酷的现实中逃避。

要我割舍这一切，真的，不愿意。

要我忘记这一切，真的，不甘愿。

如果有人问我，最想做的事情是什么。

我会说，我好想不顾一切把带你走。

不想任何事情，

跟自己的感觉走。

不顾一切后果，

走自己想要的路。

我知道，这一切仅会发生在童话故事中。

不忍心对你残忍，所以对自己残忍。

不舍得伤害你，所以选择伤害自己。

我告诉自己

不需要强忍着眼泪

狂哭吧

如果哭了会比较舒服，那就尽管哭。

哭累了，眼泪自然会停。

痛久了，心自然会麻木。

如果要我重新做选择，我想，

我还是会选择犯同样的错误。

end with tears.

Heart Vacancy.

2010-11-27T21:57:00.006+08:00

I hear your heart cry for love,
But you won't let me make it right.
You were hurt, but I decided,
That you were worth the fight.
Every night, you lock up,
You won't let me come inside.
But the look in your eyes,
As I can turn the tide.

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
I can tell you can fit one more.
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
I don't care who was there before.

I hear your heart call for love,
Then you act like there's no room.
Room for me, or anyone,
"Don't disturb" is all I see.
Close the door, turn the key,
On everything that we could be.
If loneliness would move out,
I'd fill the vacancy.
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart.

This ain't the Heartbreak Hotel,
Even though I know it well.
Those no shows, they sure tell,
In the way you hold yourself.
Don't you fret, should you get,
Another cancellation.
Give me a chance I'd make a
permanent reservation.

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
I can tell you can fit one more.
Open up make a brand new start,
I don't care who's stayed before.

I hear your heart call for love,
Then you act like there's no room.
Room for me, or anyone,
"Don't disturb" is all I see.
Close the door, turn the key,
On everything that we could be.
If loneliness would move out,
I'd fill the vacancy.
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart.

When I, talk to you, on the phone,
Listen close.
I hear your heart call for love,

Then you act like there's no room.
Room for me, or anyone,
"Don't disturb" is all I see.
Close the door, turn the key,
On everything that we could be.
If loneliness would move out,
I'd fill the vacancy.
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart.

Besties.

2010-11-27T14:10:00.002+08:00

不知怎么了，总觉得围绕着身边的朋友们，都不像以前所交的朋友那样真实，那样真诚。

好听一点叫做朋友，难听一点叫做利用。

人往往是自私的，什么事都只想到自己，只顾虑自己。

真正的朋友，是不会因为你对他有任何利益或者好处而靠近你。

是真心想交个朋友呢，还是纯粹想占你便宜？

拥有几个知已，总好过拥有很多个过客。

其实友情过分的亲密反而会彼此伤害，因为已经拥有的，就不再珍惜，已经贴近的，懒得关注。

p/s: 你说他自私，但你有没有发现到其实你自己也满自私的？

Exhausted.

2010-11-24T18:45:00.003+08:00

oh my oh my.. assignments are killing me. ):
am currently doing my magazine stuffs. MAGAZINE. is there anything to do with PR? PR students have to learn how to create magazine.. hmmmmm.. its weird. i enjoy drawing the thumbnails, just draw draw draw and draw. cincai draw anything i want. xD

thumbnails!

ignore my drawing, i know its suck.

i dislike editing photos. its freaking hard to edit! theres a lot of thing need to edit one by one.. plus im so blurrrrrrrrrrrrr with the software.. okay i admit im noob with it. -_-

rough layout!

gonna faint while doing this..

step by step.. progressing..

finished layout!

done by edmund lim.

am satisfied with the SaSa advertisement that i made. although most of it were just inserting pictures, but still i put superb byk effort in it! loving it~ <3

finished layout!

done by frannie jia. :D

keep editing the cover page of the magazine.. wanna say sorry to edmund cause i keep asking him to change this and that. he's fed up with my yim-jim-ness, haha. paise lah, i just want everything to be perfect.. =s

complete cover page!

teeheee.. ^^v

OTHERS... still rushing it. urghhhhhhhh.. have to pass up on this friday. hope we manage to finish it within these few days.. gah yao everyone! xoxo

F U.

2010-11-10T01:13:00.002+08:00

FUCK YOU!

that is all i want to say.

Girls.

2010-11-06T19:37:00.002+08:00

男生们，请别轻易爱上这种女孩，因为：

她独立，好强，宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦也不愿向别人提起。

其实骨子里，渴望有一个避风港湾，让她去依靠。但她不会承认。

她必须确定那个人是否可以承受得了这一切，承受她的撒娇、她的无理取闹，她的倔强，她的悲观，她所有的性格缺陷，且对她永远不离不弃。

只有这样，她才放心，可以放心去继续做自己，不会害怕有一天将要面对失去。

如果没有，那么她只好继续寂寞和孤独。

她会和每个异性朋友大声说笑，无所顾忌。但是，当他们向她表达爱意时，她却开始像刺猬一样，保护自己。

她对爱情没有安全感，也不会给别人安全感。

其实她要的并不多，只是一个对的人，一个温暖的家。这对她来说太重要了，虽然在她口中说出来的却是:我不需要爱情。

当你紧张她的异性朋友，她会一面跟你说，他只是我的谁谁谁，却一面偷偷在意你的感受…

她会希望现在的他是怎样怎样的，有各种各样的挑剔苛求的条件。她只不过是想要一个用努力来证明爱她的人，她不求结果，只希望你有那份心。

对她们而言,唯一具备杀伤力的只有感情，感情如果受到挫折，要么毁了她们，要么成就了她们。从此更加漠然，专注于事业。

她分手后绝不会在人面前要死要活，她嬉笑怒闹，变得更加开朗。在听到朋友说有关他的话题时，从不刻意回避，她适当参与，淡然微笑，她的表现总会遭人怀疑这段感情的深浅，而人群中只有那些知道背后情节的人才看见她背后的眼泪和努力。

她会在不开心的时候，放声大哭。这对她来说，是一种释放。

即使在你爱着她的时候，她也会胡思乱想让自己悲伤。

如果你看到她的眼泪，请相信这绝不是她在博取同情，这是她这样一颗内心骄傲的女子不得已的场景。

她想对你负责，对她负责，对自己的过去和未来负责，但请你不要轻易给她承诺和誓言。她很难相信。

即使她很难相信，但她还是会选择等待。

她的伤初始浓烈似酒，很快就会变为一杯水，却让水渗入生活，成为点点滴滴，她选择在其中淡定，在其中沉默和内伤。

她就是这样，强势，霸道，任性，不会讨人欢心，死要面子，她爱朋友多过你…

她最有保护欲，最强势，最敏感，最暴躁，最善变，最没耐心，最冲动，最耐不住寂寞却又喜欢假惺惺地让自己一个人呆着。

有时候她又充满阳光的气息，爱笑爱说话，活蹦乱跳，乐观开朗…

她很自私，只愿意与人同甘，不愿意让别人跟她共苦，她不想成为别人的负担…

她喜欢热闹，总会成为聚会的焦点，前提是她想。

她也享受孤独，会静坐在一个人的房间听着很伤感的音乐。

她也会一整天呆在房间里心情压抑低落，但第二天一早起来，又会轻轻松松地打理一切，慌慌忙忙地拽着大衣拎着包往外冲。

她习惯在人前表现得很坚强，一副大女子主义的模样。

她会想，遇到真正懂她爱她宠她的人,她就一定就会很安静，心甘情愿地安静下来，不烦，不闹，按时吃饭，按时睡觉，按时做一切能安心和他一起做的事情。

她从不轻言爱，她的爱很沉默，那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气，在她的心里有一道栅栏，那就是自尊。

她看得比生命更尊贵的自尊。

如果有一个这样的女孩对你说她爱你，那就代表在她的心里你的份量胜过了她的自尊。

你不了解她，不懂她的好，就别爱她。

她会在真正爱她的人面前卸掉所有的盔甲和伪装，做个幸福的小女人。

她不忙的时候会希望每天缠着你，偶尔无理取闹地要你陪着她，希望你的所有行动都让她知道，因为在她心里，你就是她的…

她也会幻想，在遇到真正的他时,会在他累的时候悄悄熬上点营养粥，然后送到他跟前，静静地看着他喝完。

她在你面前永远调皮捣蛋，偶尔撒撒娇，跟你玩小孩子的游戏，在你朋友面前从来大方得体，微笑地依偎在你身边。

她不让你给她买这买那，她会说，我啊，是大女人，不喜欢小男人给我买单…但是心里却会为你私自买给她的礼物而暗自开心，因为女人觉得那是你的宠爱。

她在意的是你的心，你若真心，她必然实意。最起码你得表现得真心,能让她感觉得到。

她会经常冒出些新鲜的想法来调剂生活，她的多变有时会让你不安。

终有一天,她的敏感在你的呵护下慢慢消失不见，她的倔强被你的保护软化，她的伪装在你面前被轻易识穿…

得到她，别骄傲，因为没有人可以吃定她。她是完美主义，对感情，容不得一点瑕疵。

只有懂她的人，才会得到她的好。

她有时是有些迟钝的，在感情方面，但有时很敏感，因为她在乎。

所以，别爱这样的女孩，她太骄傲，太偏激，太粗心，又太敏感，太难伺候，太不温柔…

如果你没勇气，没能力可以坚持爱她，就不要打扰她。

因为如果你会离开，她的心将会永远冰封，再也不会为任何人打开…

Forget It.

2010-11-06T02:21:00.001+08:00

我不够成熟，没有办法原谅背叛我的人。
也不够死心塌地，没有办法跌的遍体鳞伤还紧抓着不放。
我输了。

我們結婚吧！

2010-11-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

水瓶座 a.k.a The Aquarius Woman

最爱忽远忽近若即若离的告白

Keep her guessing about how close or how far away you are, and she'll be in your arms.

双鱼座 a.k.a The Pisces Woman

对死缠烂打的求婚攻势最没抵抗力

If you never give up, you'll always have her by your side.

牡羊座 a.k.a The Aries Woman

看上眼的一定是最有正义感的男性

Be fair. Be just. And you'll be loved.

金牛座 a.k.a The Taurus Woman

喜欢选择给她安全感的另一半

This one loves to feel secure. Offer her nothing less.

双子座 a.k.a The Gemini Woman

最重视精神层面的求爱行动

She doesn't just love men of action. There has to be a spiritual side, too.

巨蟹座 a.k.a The Cancer Woman

对男人无辜祈求的眼神最没辙

She'll give in if you look at her with those imploring innocent eyes.

狮子座 a.k.a The Leo Woman

爱她就要让全世界都知道

No space for shyness here. Announce your love from the rooftops.

处女座 a.k.a The Virgo Woman

要她说我愿意得先遵从她的完美主义

She demands perfection, if thats what you live up to, she'll say, "I do".

天平座 a.k.a The Libra Woman

对思考周密的告白最无力抗辩

Judge your approach well, and she'll have no defence against your prosecution.

天蝎座 a.k.a The Scorpio Woman

无法抵抗语言能力极佳的示爱

To win her over, be tongue in cheek and show her you can speak her language.

射手座 a.k.a The Sagittarius Woman

喜欢自由奔放的求爱

Be free in spirit and outspoken in mind and you'll win her over.

魔蝎座 a.k.a The Capricorn Woman

平实的话语比甜蜜言语更有吸引力

Straightforward talk will attract her more than honeyed words.

I care.

2010-11-03T00:55:00.005+08:00

many things can happen within a week. it should be a happy weekend, but some small changes can just ruin your mood. sometimes when you knew about something, its hard for you to act like nothing happen. you've got no idea what you should do, what respond to give, what feeling to have, what expression to show. try not to think about it? act like you dont care? its really hard to act like you dont care when you really care.
there are things that i wish not to change. im trying my best to remain the same, i want it to be the same forever, but i cant control whats happening. if its fated to change, the only thing that i can do is to accept it, although im not willing to do so.
just wanna tell you. i do care, i care a lot. perhaps i might change? please dont get mad at me, maybe i got my own reason.. but i do value our friendship. i aint cold blooded human. im not like those kind of people, hurt someone and yet they can pretend like nothing happen before. no i cant..

当你很刻意不去注意他，反而会越来越在意。

他与她

2010-11-01T01:24:00.002+08:00

他的样子看起来呆呆的，却是位有绅士风度的男孩。

她的个性虽然糊涂及害羞，却是位很可爱的女孩。

他和她，曾是一对很要好的室友。

他们度过每个日子，每个夜晚。

一起享受欢乐时光，一起挨过煎熬时刻。

他为她所做的一切很体贴，很尽责。

而她对他态度很温柔，很细心。
当她遇到任何困难时，他总是第一时刻出现在她身旁。
就算他不会的，不是他拿手的，都会尽力完成。
他，就像是她的白马王子。
当他遇到任何挫折时，她总是在他身旁默默的支持着。
就算她帮不上任何忙，给不了任何解决方案，她都愿意陪他。
她，就像是他的白雪公主。

他喜欢她，但是他不晓得什么是喜欢。

她喜欢他，但是她不懂得该如何表达。

两个人重复着同样的步骤，谁也没采取任何行动。
他们处于朋友及恋人的中间。
暧昧的关系，像恋人般的朋友。
直到有一天，朋友问了他一个问题。
他对她，究竟是什么感觉。
他犹豫的思考了一下，回答说，亲妹妹的感觉。
她原本满心的期待着，听到后，勉强的微笑着。
他伤害了她，他不知道。
她彻底失望，她清楚知道。
她对他说：“不要再对任何人这样好。”
说了最后一句话，她离开了他的世界。
他对自己说：“不要再对别的女孩这样好。”
他想重来想挽回，但是时间不会倒转。
这是个没有快乐结局的故事。

Sensitive.

2010-10-24T10:14:00.011+08:00

The conversation between Human L and Me:

[ Blue : Me ; Purple : Human L ]

dont feel like chatting with MSN. i prefer talking to you face to face.

whyy? -_-

i value facial expressions highly. especially the movement of your eyebrow.

Darnnnnnn, thats why i dislike to talk face to face. for those who know, my eyebrow can 'talk'. while im talking or chatting with friends, when the situation is very gek dong or very chi gek, it moves a lot. and i always frown. i look fierce and lan c everytime i do that. for those who do not know, my eyebrow can do 八字眉， can yours do that?

actually im trying to make you emotionally stronger. trying to make you have better control on your emotions, yourself.

i can control my emotions loh okayyyyyyyy.

previously, you are darn sensitive with critics. ajinamoto?

During the day we bbq, Human L tease me about the the ajinamoto thingy. its because i cannot recognize which one is sugar, which one is ajinamoto. he asked me: ini rumah awak ke? i stared at him and replied: YOU DONT MAKE ME SCOLD YOU ARR!!

okayy, i apologize for that day. my attitude was bad. i dont like people teasing me in things that idk, especially in cooking. i admit idk how to cook, urghhhhhhh. FML.

thats just one of it. previously worse.

O.O.. ape worse? -_-

the swing of your mood, like roller coaster. roller coaster suppose to be fun, but your 'roller coaster', not fun.

yeaaa my mood is like a roller coaster. it goes quickly, it comes quickly. this minute, im happy. next minute, im sad. im weird, i can be very down easily when im alone by thinking back to the past. why? idk why. im trying to control it, i dont wanna show it out. i need time to change. why? cause i know its annoying. no people wants to see my blackie face, so better keep it to myself.

Smileeeeeeeeeeeee!

每天记得笑一下，不必多，一下下就好。

Baby.

2010-10-23T15:53:00.012+08:00

She is Cute.

She is Cool.

She is Beautiful.

She is Sexy.

She is Natural.

She is Unique.

She is Special.

She is Hot.

She is Angela Baby.

Am jealous. superb jealous of her. how can she be sooooooooo pretty? uhhhh, not fair. its not fair. why isnt everyone born to be pretty and handsome? i hate people who make fun of each other because of the way they look. imagine if you're the ugly ones and people always make fun of you, tease you. how would you feel?

Ugly Is Not A Crime.

I like her, but i will choose not to love her. its sad to fall in love with a person who is superb pretty/handsome, superb cute, superb hot, or superb popular. he or she has lots of admires, and they wouldnt notice an ordinary person like me. 普通也不错，不是吗？

Guys, Take Notes.

2010-10-22T18:10:00.001+08:00

9 Deadly Words Used By A Women

1. Fine

This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes

If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing

This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead

This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5. Loud Sigh

This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to no.3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay

This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks

A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is pure sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. do not say 'you're welcome', that will bring on a 'whatever'.)

8. Whatever

Is a woman's way of saying F-YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it

Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to no.3.

Mine.

2010-10-19T13:37:00.012+08:00

最近的我过得还不错，说不上是开心，也不是伤心。Neutral正是我现在的心情。

朋友都问，你怎么了？情绪低落？还是压力过多？

仔细想想，我也不晓得答案是什么。

心情的转变并不需要理由。你可以突然大笑，突然流泪。也可以突然高兴，突然难过。

对我来说，这是所谓的Emo。

我要做什么，是我的自由。不要过问任何事，因为这和你无关。我也会有赌气，耍脾气说错话的时候。别说我的态度不好，因为每个人都一样，包括你在内。

你问我，你还好吗？我回答，放心没事。其实，你自己知道答案是什么。既然懂了，那又何必再问？这样做只会让我更加沮丧。

Things around me is complicated and confuse. 很多事情表面上看没什么，私底下却隐藏了许多内幕。

我没对任何人说，因为我不懂该怎么表达。我不会随便透漏，因为我尊重他人的隐私。

这不是自私不分享，这是不能说的秘密。

知道的太多未必是件好事，知道的太少也不是件坏事。
有时候不要把东西看得太重，太在意反而会让自己受伤害。就像你做一些事，不要太过有自信。因为当你失败时，你承受不了那些挫折，那种失败感。
对待任何事情，适可而止就好。
当一个人不再对你有兴趣，不要伤心，不用流泪，因为你值得比他更好的人。
把他当做是你人生中曾经的一部分。美好或不美好，全部抛到脑后。
过了，已经是past tense，不必再留恋。

这不是一篇短文，也不是一篇文章，更不是一堆垃圾。
这是，属于我的部落格。

Insomnia.

2010-10-19T02:05:00.004+08:00

time's striking 2am soon. im suppose to be in bed right now, but end up sitting in front of lappie due to insomnia. my eyes are heavy, my mind is tired. no matter how hard i try, i just cant sleep. class starts at 10am tomorrow, great. i wonder can i get up on time early in the morning?

i had a wonderful weekend last week, went to genting with a bunch of friends. its been a long time since i last step into the theme park. had lotsa fun playing all those rides, especially the cup thingy. thanks to ah hiew aka the king of spin, my head almost fly off and i almost puke. i never knew he could spin that fast, pro sial. anyone wanna challenge him? make sure you bought insurance before playing.

i bought jam hsiao's ticket, woots! thanks to my papa for buying the tickets, and thanks to myself, im broke. the concert will be held on 18th Dec at Stadium Bukit Jalil. still have two more months to go, but i started to feel excited. hope my exam timetable will not clash with the concert. ROCKERS, GET READY TO ROCK THE CONCERT.

this is how rocker pose, ROXX !

p/s: 我知道你变了，所以我也变了。

You.

2010-10-18T01:37:00.000+08:00

About You Now (Acoustic Version) by Sugababes

Can we bring yesterday back around,

Cause i know how i feel about you now.

I was dumb, i was wrong, i let you down,

But i know how i feel about you now.

在我脑海里，全部都是你。

Hell Yeah.

2010-10-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

Assignment, I'm Lovin' It.

Things keep repeating everyday.
the same stuffs, the same person, the same feeling, the same mood, the same expression.
i'm immune.
my life gets kinda boring, is there anything to make it special?

p/s: 我们彼此间没有了联系，是好或是坏？

I Love Her.

2010-10-09T18:56:00.010+08:00

Model of the day :: Agyness Deyn ::

shes superb cool huh? i love the way she looks.

so cute! i love the way she dress.

shes awesome. i love the way she pose.

awwwww so pretty. i love the way she smile.

i feel like cutting my hair. cut it short. short short short!

im not bored with long hair.
just feel like changing my style?
idk whether it suits me or not.. i will give it a try someday.
but not now, i still want my hair to grow longer.
faster grow longer pls, i wanna curl my hair.

Tears.

2010-10-05T23:07:00.006+08:00

同样的事情，再度发生。没什么好伤心的，我自己清楚明白。只是没想到连你也一样，和别人没什么两样。老实说，我对你失望透顶。

感谢你，让我再一次受到伤害。也感谢你，让我看清你所有一切。

坚强的女人？一点也不。严厉的眼神，冷漠的表情只是一种掩饰。女人的心，脆弱得很。易受伤害，也易心碎。

女人的想法，其实很简单。这些道理，你懂吗？No, you never know.

理由？够了，已经不再需要。解释？算了，已经没有必要。或许你根本没打算解释，是我自己硬要知道理由。

当我笨，相信你的每一句话。当我傻，不相信眼前的事实。

情人？你做不到。朋友？我办不到。我才明白，我们的世界都不同。两条直线，是不会有交叉的那一天。没有开始，没有结局。

我的生活里，再也没有你。我的世界里，已经没有你。

Fuck Off Please.

2010-09-08T13:01:00.008+08:00

不明白，为何他的思想以及动作可以这样的不成熟。
他，说的话很幼稚，做的事很无聊。
我不想多说，也不知道该怎么说。
之前跟她暧昧，总是让人误会。
有时候对她好，表现得很体贴很温柔。
有时候发脾气，因为她做了一些你不开心的事。
每天问她何时才要接受你，死缠烂打的。
但现在呢？只是普通朋友？
你会不会改变太快？
只因为一些小小的事情，所以就玩完了。
你说，its over now.
拜托，从没开始过，哪来的结束？
如果不想了，不要了，就别再打扰她。
如果这是你想要的结果，那就不要后悔你当初的选择。
Keep your hands off my girl.

你很烂，你知道吗？

Rock Your Body.

2010-09-08T00:14:00.007+08:00

everyone is enjoying their holidays, so do i.
well.. my holiday is kinda special this time
my maid went back to celebrate hari raya with her family
so.. frannie jia and joey yuan end up doing housework during holiday.
LMAOOOOOOOO!
one word, s u c k s. ewwwww..

gonna go melaka and singapore this coming weekends.
errrrrr.. i prefer to stay at home actually
clubclubclub, playplayplay, wetwetwet
i wanna rock the world upside down!

p/s: 10 days to go.. coming soon.

Happy National Day.

2010-08-31T01:12:00.006+08:00

its 31st of August 2010 today!
Happy 53rd Birthday to Malaysia. (:
everyone is enjoying their national day outside, except me.
even my mama went to Zouk! cool huh?
its because of her birthday, thats why she went there.
i wanted to follow her, but..
a promise is a promise, i wont break it. (: (: (:
no club, no yumcha, no hang gai, no outing plan, just stay home for the whole day.
didnt really have a good rest since last week.
spent almost every time with my "lovely" notes.
touch it, face it, understand it, read it, smell it, sayang it, really wanna puke.
but now, its gonna over soon.
wed will be the last day, time to say byebye, muahahaha~

*to be honest, i think i will fail my PRST subject. cause.. seriously idk wth am i writing in my answer booklet.
and im lack of time too, didnt manage to finish it.
sighhhhhhhhhh.. anyway, no matter whats the result is, i wont feel sad.
because, just like what you said, i did tried my best. (:

fall in ♥ with this song

:: 我喜欢（不，我爱） - 严爵 ::

因为我很 ♥ 你，不想要你放弃 ♥ 情。

The End.

2010-08-29T10:18:00.004+08:00

Public Relations Strategies and Tools will be the toughest subject to study among all.
and this paper is going to start 2pm sharp later at Tarc College.
which means i have 4hours left to study this blardy subj.
i dont know what to say anymore, except SUCKS.
90% failure, 10% succeed.
...
...

i wanna cry so badly, such a failure.

Eat Books.

2010-08-24T02:20:00.002+08:00

went to library for revision with Lester, Joseph and Jess.

studied from 4pm till 9pm, hebat kan!?!?
but only manage to read some of it cause fking byk things to memorize.
aikss cincai lah, at least we did try our best.

my notes. hardworking leh, ngeks.

my messy stuffs.

will not upload photo of myself, cause its fking ugly.
eye bags, dark cirlcles and pimples kaokao due to not enough sleep, wtf.
and i think im gonna get superb fat before exams end, cause i eat non-stop.
mcflurry oreo and magnum ice cream, french fries, 2bars of chocolates, lots of snacks + sweets = GG.COM!
but what to do? so damn stress, thats why end up eat, eat and eat.
have to diet soon. -_-

*hey buddy, thanks a lot, i feel much more better now.
thanks for your support, i will try my best geh lahh.
dont worry. (:

public speaking exam, i gonna kill you kaokao.
urgghhhhhh, FML.

Stress Die.

2010-08-23T13:26:00.003+08:00

i've no idea how to pass my subjects..
i dont understand a single thing that i read from notes.
everything is like a question mark, so blank.
even i force myself to memorize but it still refuse to enter my brain.
i dont expect to get an A for all the subjects, cause its impossible..
just hope that i manage to pass all of them, thats it.
for me, PASS is enough.
sighhh
wo jiu lai yao stress die liao.
):

(N) to myself.

Hard Moments.

2010-08-20T13:57:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was thursday night aka ladies night @ Maison, and yeahh i was there too.
but not clubbing, ngeks.
there's a car show outside Maison, just went there to have a look at those leng leng cars.
i made a promise to myself and i mean it. sorry gals and boys, say NO to club this month.
went to BBJ after the car show, chit chat and sisha is what we usually do during yumcha session.
i was playing game using xiao gay's iphone, and this reminds me that i have an ipod at home.
omgggggg i totally forgot about it. i guess i didnt touch it for months?
sorry daddy, im gonna find that ipod out and use it. so so sorry. -_-

last night will be the last day hanging out with my friends. start from today onwards, gonna bai guan for a week~
this semester was f-ing tough, stupid subjects. i don't wanna resit any of the papers!
time to study hard, time to makan buku-buku, time to say byebye to facebook.

DPR2 Exam Timetable:
25.08 :: Public Speaking ::
27.08 :: Communication Law :: *my mama bday arrrr.. ):
29.08 :: Public Relations Strategies and Tools :: *BR icecream arrrrr.. ):
01.09 :: English For Mass Communication ::

GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST TO FRANNIE JIA!

Secrets.

2010-08-17T12:55:00.005+08:00

its 17th today. guess what, exam is going to start next week, which is on 25th, 27th, 29th August and 1st of Sept. time pass so fast, i cant imagine that exam is around the corner and i havent start to do any revision at all. my brain is totally blank.. i wonder how to survive during exam. urggghhhh, im-so-dead. bless me please!

and, im officially broke now. i spent a lot on shopping! dammit. i went to Midvalley few times a week, shop non-stop. im over budget now, sigh. what to do? mega sales made me gone crazy. ):

recently, i heard many secrets from my friends. most of it was... not-so-good. sorry that i cant help you guys anything, what i can do is just lend you my ears, and listen to yours stories. im not a good speaker, but i can be a good listener. thats all i can say. cheer up my friends. time will heal, just go with the flow. (:
*i promise i wont tell, you can count on me. fong xem wor.

back to myself. errrrr.. i think theres something wrong with me. i dont know what the hell this feeling was, its kinda.. emo? sad? frustrating? i hate it a lot, dammit again. hope everything will be okay soon. prayyyyyyy hard! *namo namo..

what i wrote now, its just my own feeling. seriously NO OFFEND.
its okay for me to fetch people around. BUT, please dont treat me like your personal ahmad. actually, its not my duty at all to fetch people, unless you're my family members. my daddy told me before: "girl, i gave you a car is for your own convenient, not to fetch your friends around. why cant you friends think that way?" sometimes i feel like saying it out, but i didnt do so. its so hard, and i dont want to spoil our relationship because of these small matter thingy. you can say that im stingy or small gas, up to you guys. but please dont force me to say all these. if that really happens, im sure theres no happy ending.

p/s: "I AIN'T A DRIVER." by Frannie Low.

Bleeding Love.

2010-08-03T23:36:00.001+08:00

Please vote for me and my team members - BANGS. :D
Just click into the following link:

http://live.digi.com.my/Watch.aspx?eid=10114

Click "Undi", done!
Thanks a lot for supporting us.. appreciate it.
xoxo

MissBeautifulAngel 2010

2010-07-17T14:30:00.014+08:00

"Miss Beautiful Angel 2010" was held at KL Live last night.

there were 17 contestants, but only 10 of them will proceed to the next stage.
i don't really remember who was the 10 lucky winners, cause i only focus on the gals that i like.
anyway, Congrats to those who won. *clapclapclap*
see you gals soon. Good Luck. (:

:: Miss Beautiful Angel 2010 - 17 finalists ::

MY0613 - Tan Feng Sian

MY0513 - June Ng Lee Chuen

MY0507 - Lilian Lau Yun Yun

MY0526 - Carol Ong Ke Rou

MY0479 - Angeline Teh Wan Lin

MY0506 - Evonne Teo Yee Von

MY0512 - Yong Hui Sun

MY0508 - Crystal Lee Ting Ting

MY0621 - Soo Siao Wei

MY0053 - Elaine Chong Shing Lei

MY0620 - Law Siew Teng

MY0616 - Low Huai San

MY0546 - Cindy Poon Cee Cin

MY0452 - Ivon Fua Fui Yin

MY0517 - Lee Mei Shi

MY0587 - Candy Tan Chiew Lieng

MY0624 - Joycs Chee Kak Yan

:: Miss Beautiful Angel 2010 - 10 finalists ::
*if i'm not mistaken. =x

1. MY0613 - Tan Feng Sian
2. MY0452 - Ivon Fua Fui Yin
3. MY0479 - Angeline Teh Wan Lin
4. MY0507 - Lilian Lau Yun Yun
5. MY0512 - Yong Hui Sun
6. MY0526 - Carol Ong Ke Rou
7. MY0517 - Lee Mei Shi
8. MY0621 - Soo Siao Wei
9. MY00508 - Crystal Lee Ting Ting
10. MY0624 - Joycs Chee Kak Yan

Please do visit the website below for more information:
http://www.missbeautifulangel.com/

i like MY0452 and MY0546 so much, their look and their hair. so damn nice lah weii!
both of them look like twins.
too bad only one of them manage to get in the top 10. awwwwwww.. so sad.
ohhh yaaa, there were also some performers performed last night.
:: Battleground - Max Identity ::
:: 绝对Superstar - 黄俊源 John ::
:: DJ Caprice & Goldfish ::

still kinda satisfied with our work last night.
although there's some mistakes happened, but the whole event still manage to go on smoothly.
Good job to all of us. *ngekngek

Congrats to Team Unveil too, it was their Grand Opening at Al Barkath a.k.a BBJ last night.

:: T e a m . U n v e i l ::
Grand Opening: 16.07.2010

:: T e a m . U n v e i l . F o r u m ::

:: T e a m . U n v e i l . M e m b e r s ::

maybe next time i should be their photographer, shoot their pics and post it on Facebook. kaka~
although i'm not a member of Team Unveil, but..
I ♥ TU!

p/s: Happy Bday to Manyee, happy sweet 19th! ^^

Wish Me Luck.

2010-07-14T04:17:00.001+08:00

its 4.03am now and i still awake. tomorrow is the mid term test for Public Speaking subject. and guess what, i didn't even touch a single page of the notes since i got back from friend's house. i've got no mood at all, f lazy to study. just leave it aside, i don't give a damn.

i feel much better after having a conversation with someone. thanks a lot. (: we can't control things to become what we want it to be, but at least, i don't wanna let myself regret. seriously hope that everything can remain the way they are, forever. but its hard, i know. just go with the flow, that's the best solutions.

i'm thinking, what if i'm the one who are facing the problems now, can i just let it go easily? or will i end up like that, stuck in there, and there's nothing that i can do. it's easy to forget or let go of someone if both of you don't meet each other, but it's hard for you to do so if you continue meeting each other every day. no matter what, once you made your decision, do not regret.

p/s: ain't there any medicine that can cure heartache?

Love The Way You Lie.

2010-07-09T21:51:00.002+08:00

if i ain't got feeling, will it be better?
when i was hurt, i wont feel anything.
when i was scolded, i wont feel anything.
when i was cheated, i wont feel anything.
when i was fooled, i wont feel anything.
no matter how people treat me, i don't feel it.
no matter what i did to others, i don't feel it.
what if, my heart was as hard as a rock.

Love The Way You Lie - by Eminem feat Rihanna.
like this song so much, maybe it represents my current feeling.
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
well that's all right because i like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
well that's all right because i love the way you lie.
I Love The Way You Lie.

慢.慢.的

2010-07-07T22:24:00.003+08:00

01.慢慢的才知道,太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己

　　02.慢慢的才知道,对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝

越来越少,

　　03.慢慢的才知道,一个人要自己对自己好,因为真正关心你的人很少,有了事他们也不一定会在你身边。所以要自己照顾自己

　　04.慢慢的才知道,真心对一个人好不一定有回报,而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的,

　　05.慢慢的才知道,很多东西是可遇而不可求的,很多东西只能拥有一次,

　　06.慢慢的才知道,恋爱不一定是真心的,有可能是利益关系,有可能是攀比心理,

　　07.慢慢的才知道,不要和别人争论什么,因为那是没有结果的,无论谁对谁错,

　　08.慢慢的才知道,很多时候自己遇到不开心事,千万不要渴望别人同情,大多数人会采取冷漠回敬的。那样会更让人家看不起,

　　09.慢慢的才知道,有很多东西是不属于你的,你使劲强求会遭天遣的,

　　10.慢慢的才知道,未必做每件事情都有意义,可是做的每件事情都觉得是一件回忆!

　　11.慢慢的才知道,人的性格可以差异到如此之大,

　　12.慢慢的才知道,许多曾经的人会变的让你认不出 ,但请留住回忆。

　　13.慢慢的才知道,从现在开始应该把握每一个你能把握的人,放弃你留不住的人,不要因为想留住个别人而失去一群人。

　　14.慢慢的才知道,自己一定在乎自己的自尊,但你的自尊在别人眼里根本不算什么,

　　15.慢慢的才知道,不要心情不好的时候对周围人发脾气,渴望他们谅解你,人家不是你的父母,现在你可以明白父母对自己多么重要,

　　16.慢慢的才知道,即便有人对情感看的无所谓,你一定要坚信,人之间的感情,有可能会令所有东西都无法超越的, 但记住,只是有可能,

　　17.慢慢的才知道,原来现实如此的无奈。

　　18.慢慢的才知道,会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事 , 但那与你无关,别人爱咋整随他便,别生不该生的气,不值,

　　20.慢慢的才知道,两个天天在一起的人不一定是朋友, 有可能什么都不是,

　　21.慢慢的才知道,会遇到很多诱惑,无论别人怎么样, 你是你,你有你的原则和底限,

　　22.慢慢的才知道,会有人很讨厌你或者和你过不去 , 但是他爱怎么样就怎么样,我们要大度,不和小人计较,但前提是你正确,

　　23.慢慢的才知道,很多人无法理解男女之间的朋友关系,在一起就一定是恋人,不是恋人就一定不能在一起,

　　24.慢慢的才知道,学习要刻苦,因为凭聪明就能应付考试科目的人是凤毛翎角,

　　25.慢慢的才知道,原来时间一空闲下来是那么无聊 ,丝毫没有中学的充实的感觉,

　　26.慢慢的才知道,手机是别人有事找你的时候用的 ,并不是为了交流感情的

　　27.慢慢的才知道,可以不把所有人当朋友,但千万不能把一个人当敌人,至少可以当同学,

　　28.慢慢的才知道,玩你能玩的起的,玩不起的千万别玩,不然会输了什么都没有的,

　　29.慢慢的才知道,快乐常常来自回忆,而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距,

　　30.慢慢的才知道,那些嘻哈打闹只是消遣而已,而过往的抽烟打架更是无知.

　　31.慢慢的才知道,有很多人的想法与做法你无法理解, 或是根本不知道他在想什么,千万别在那揣摩或者瞎猜, 那样会让自己累,既然人家要保持神秘感那就让人家保持去啊, 自己又不是占卜师,

　　32.慢慢的才知道,不要把自己想的有多高,没有绝对性的胜利,也没有绝对性的失败

　　33,慢慢的才知道,生活是有很多不公平的,你一定要正视,相信实力和群众的眼睛,

　　34.慢慢的才知道,兄弟情义有时候未必是想像的那么美好,只有自己真心付出,才有可能得到别人的真心对待.

　　35.慢慢的才知道,有的人不断的算计,到头还来是会输的很惨,所以应当保持一个平和的心!

　　36.慢慢的才知道,有的事情不是自己所愿意的,但是有的事情必须得去完成,那也是对自己的一段特训.

　　37,慢慢的才知道,原来两个人在一起或真或假,相处的时间还是占据着重要成份.

　　38.慢慢的才知道,现实根想法的差距,必须要随机应变,跟上生活的步伐!

　　39.慢慢的才知道,自己也在慢慢长大,不在是小孩子了,适应着每一件事的成长.

　　40慢慢的才知道，给人留一线日后好相见的真正意义 , 没有永远的敌人只有永远的朋友,凡事不要做的太绝,事情的结局都是用嘴巴说出来的.

　　41.慢慢的才知道,不管玩的多好的朋友都有可能失去, 但是我们还是要乐观面对,若是真的把他(她)当作自己的朋友就应该为他(她)祝福.遥望!只是做自己所做的.

　　42.慢慢的才知道,自己在慢慢接受社会了,所以也要慢慢学会适应

Cincai-s.

2010-07-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

Friday night, yu sheng, jovinna and i watched "Triple Tap" @ Midvalley. i was late because of Brazil vs Netherlands match. amat disappointed with the result, 2-1. Goodbye Brazil, goodbye Kaka. Goodbye to money too. sigh and sobbb. Errrrrr.. not really understand what the movie was about, therefore.. no comment. -_- After movie, we went to yee's house for mahjong till 5am, again. i memang love mahjong a lot. i wish to mahjong everyday if possible. and im sure that daddy will definitely kill me if i do so. please call me steady mahjong kaki. ngekngek.

Saturday, i woke up around 2pm in the afternoon. im tired, didnt get much rest these few days. and yet i wet till so late last night. dark circles amat serious dah, wth. padan muka frannie jia. Bai-Guan-Day. Conclusion: s i e n .

Sunday, work. dont wanna give too much comment, in case someone A or someone N saw this post and tell someone T, someone S and someone J what someone F wrote. someone T told someone J that someone F didnt did a good job today. yea, someone F is kinda childish during work time, so what? someone F always did that. someone F dont think that its too over loh, got nothing to do that time, thats why joke awhile, like that also cannot merh? someone T also joke around with other staffs lah, some more back stab people till so loud. someone F know that Fself dont have to right to say someone T, cause someone T has more experience, and some more T is elder than F. FINE. someone J, seriously someone F dont like someone T a lot loh. the way someone T talk very annoying, especially T's attitude, damn fed up with T. someone F's mood was ruined because of someone T. sorry to someone J cause someone F act impolitely. but someone F wont apologize for what F said about someone T. want sorry from someone F to someone T? Nahhhhhh, sorry butt lah.

Time to study now. comm law's midterm tomorrow. wish me luck. goodnight people.

有一种思念叫做不联系

2010-06-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

有时候，你很想念一个人，但你不会给他打电话，
因为打电话给他，对方冷冷的一句“喂”
会让你不知说什么好，也会让你挂电话时更失落。
还是不打比较好，发个信息吧
但又害怕对方不回信息

要不，就算回了也就简短到让人心疼的一个“哦”
有时候晚上驾车时，很想找个人聊一聊，却找不到对象，那是骗人的
因为她其实很想念你，但又不敢说出口。
但一旦打了，就会后悔刚才的动作，因为你的一句“不得空”，让她显得更低落。
虽然她明白，其实你真的很忙。这样一来，以后要打给你时，会让她先三思而后行。
想打电话给曾最爱的人，但不曾爱过她的人，而且还伤害她最深的人，
不是害怕说些什么好，而是害怕对方一看见自己的名字，就盖电话了。
因为害怕对方觉得反感，觉得自己死缠烂打。

其实她只是突然想起他。
很想听到他的声音，等听到了他的声音
也许就是另一回事了
想像中的一切
往往比现实美好些
想念中的那个人也比现实中的可人些
思念好像是遥远
有时偏偏感觉很亲近
可电话的那一头，MSN的那一边
又好像很飘渺

其实
不联络不代表不思念
有时正因为想念所以才不联系
因为想念而不知该说些什么
所以，距离不=分离，没联系不=忘记，没通电话不=冷落，没见面不=不关心
仍然被那简单的那三个字所感动: 我想你

I'm tired.

2010-06-26T15:04:00.004+08:00

assignment assignment assignment!
goshhh.. when can i finish all these blardyyy assignments!?
and i'm sick for almost a week.
fever, flu, cough, sore throat.. all sickness come to me at the same time.
feel like banging my head to the wall and faint for few days.
Public Speaking - Individual Assign + Group Assign
English for Mass Comm - Group Assign
Communication Law - Group Assign
PR Strategies & Tools - Fundraising Events
Basic Photography - Exercises
WTH. there's so many things that i need to do!
i'm tired. i'm exhausted. seriously, i need some rest.
MoodWentBlueeeeeeee..

To "You":
.evol ym eybdoog .em deen regnol on uoy ,ereht revo enif er'uoy ekil smees ?huh tol a degnahc dah uoy

To "You":
.regnarts eybdoog .yaw ym og i ,yaw ruoy og uoy .eromyna sdneirf regnol on era ew .su fo htob rof dne eht s'taht sseug i

To "You":
..yrrow t'nod ,flesym fo erac ekat lliw i .ti etaicerppa yllaer .emit eht lla em ynapmocca rof sknaht

To "Me":
.lrig ,gnorts yats .em ot tseb eht lla .sffuts ruoy ni kcul doog

❤ airplanes
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now..

Loves.

2010-06-23T03:00:00.000+08:00

i saw a post from a girl's wall in Facebook
it's about her dad.
her dearest daddy just passed away on Monday
i noticed that she had updated her blog
so i clicked into the link to have a look.
when i read her blog,
tears start rolling down my cheeks
and i couldn't stop it.
i felt sad for her
but there's nothing that i can do.
although we don't know each other
my deepest condolences
to you and your family.
stay strong girl,
you can do it.
at the same time,
i'm wondering
what if the same thing happens to me?
what can i do?
what should i do?
i have no idea at all..
i don't wish that day will come.
people out there,
please appreciate what you have right now.
of course, i'm telling myself too.
frannie low, please appreciate.
appreciate everything
that daddy or mammy did for you.
i don't wanna regret someday.

Dear Daddy and Mammy, ILoveYou forever.
and ThankYou for everything.
FAMILY stands for
Father and Mother, I Love You. (:

Get high.

2010-06-19T18:20:00.004+08:00

FridayNight@MistClub

its time to party! (;
Last night, celebrated Jaron, Jason and Kenny's burfday @ Mist Club, Bangsar. once we reached, we sat there and chit chat since its still early for us to drink and dance. aku amat regret to club with those couples one. Jason and Jaron with their girls, Nana with her boy. Wth, couple everywhere! -_- Vernee and i had no choice but to stick with each other whole night, pity us. i did not feel envy, its better to stay single cause i can do anything that i want. SomeOne told me its boring to club with bf/gf, too hard to curi makan. LOL. SingleRocks! "All the single ladies, all the single ladies. Now put your hands up, oh, oh, oh!"

after i drank few glasses of liquor, my mind starts telling me that its time to get high, so we went off to the dance floor. hawt, packed, dizzy and high was the only things i can think of that time. Dance dance and danced non-stop, from dance floor up to stage, back to dance floor again. we went all over the club, wooootsss! ImmaFuckingHighTonight. "I wanna see you Move Move Shake Shake Now Drop. Move Move Shake Shake Now Drop Drop Drop DROP!"

I saw a beautiful girl on the stage. the way she move, she dance, she smile caught my attention. too bad i didnt get the chance to know her, no one wanna accompany me to go up the stage. aiksssssss. im definitely going Mist again, wait for me babe. CrazyForYou. "I'm tryna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful. Damn girl, Damn you're a Sexy Chick."

Burfday boys ain't drunk last night. the Champion of the night - Eric Low. he was so-damn-drunk until he fall asleep beside the road, drunk ass. LMAO. i drank pure liquor whole night but i didnt get drunk. praise me pleaseeeee! ngek ngek. Overall was okay. and i kinda like it, Get-Highhhhhh! LoveInThisClub. "Blame it on the pop, blame it on the dance, blame it on the rock and roll. Blame it on the feeling of the music deep insi-i-i-de your soul!"

~~3\> .niap eht dnats nac i, eromyna das eb ot ton gniyrt m'i~~

No, please.

2010-06-17T02:03:00.004+08:00

if you just wanna ask help from me, no please.
if you just wanna find me for nothing, no please.
if you just wanna know whats happening, no please.
if you just wanna disturb me, no please.
if you just wanna see me cry, no please.
if you just wanna make fun of me, no please.
if you just wanna fool me around, no please.
if you just wanna act that you care, no please.
if you just wanna hurt me badly, fuck off please.
if you don't even willing to talk to me, why talk?
if the way you talk still remain that way, why talk?
i would appreciate it so much if you just shut up and disappear.
i wont give a damn anymore.

if you really want to chat with me, yes please. =)

.dnatsrednu tond i

2010-06-13T21:10:00.003+08:00

.em ot klat tsal uoy ecnis ,syad wef a neeb sti
?em llet uoy nac ?gnineppah stahw
.ti ekat t'ndluoc i dna, erofeb morf tnereffid yllatot em ot klat uoy yaw eht
.tol a snaem ti, em rof tub, uoy ot gnihton snaem ti ebyam
.won sregnarts ekil erew ew, ylkciuq os degnahc gnihtyreve
?YHW dna yhw yhw ..yhw
.esaelp nosaer eno tsuj , nosaer yna ?nosaer a em llet uoy nac
.oot raeppasid ylneddus uoy dna ,reappa ylneddus uoy
?taht ekil em taert uoy od yhw ?uoy htiw gnorw stahw
.em ot siht gniod era uoy tey dna ,ti wenk uoy ,em gnirongi elpoep ekilsid i
.derob leef uoy nehw htiw yalp ot uoy rof yot a ?uoy rof yot a tsuj i ma
.ti htiw derob er'uoy nehw yawa ti pmud uoy dna
.nwod os gnileef mi ?em gniloof uoy era
.sgnileef siht etah gnikcuf ,hgis

3/< .ton mi yllautca ..tub ,eno liaceps eht mi thguoht i

i miss my hair.

2010-06-09T21:36:00.012+08:00

every time i did something to my hair, i'm sure i will regret.

and yes, aku memang sedang regret sekarang.
but no choice, my hair was superb messy, superb curly, superb dry, superb cacat.
i have no choice but to go for a hair cut.
i had my hair cut today, and i straighten it too.
conclusion: time to wear my beanie again! =D
...
...
...
...

my hair! sudah pendek lar.. T.T

...

focus my hair, not my face.

bye bye cacat hair.

this is called no eye see.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

i wanna buy i wanna buy these!

cotton on - chiong zhao sam.

but mama said: macam pyjamas lar wei. o.o

i like this too. it looks nice.

but mama said: aduhh you look like kayu, too thin. zzz.

p/s: i will never cut my hair again. dear hairhair, can you grow faster please?

;(

2010-06-09T02:10:00.006+08:00

it's two o'clock midnight.
today was a busy day, studied whole day. and i still have to continue my assignment after class.
sigh, reached home around 1am. but i'm not sleepy yet.
i'm sitting infront of my pc, staring at the screen and do nothing.
since i don't feel like sleeping, so i decided to blog.
but.. what to write? my brain was blank.
blank...
blank.....
blank.......
blank.........
and blank...........

i have a feeling that everything is no longer the same.
and i'm no longer that me anymore.
something had changed, something went wrong, something became different.
i... couldn't tell what's going on.

can we bring yesterday back around? cause i know how i feel about you now.

...

2010-05-27T21:34:00.001+08:00

~~mood fucked up.~~

lalalala

2010-05-26T12:13:00.006+08:00

finally i dyed my hair this morning! no more ugly color hair.. ngek ngek.
very light blonde color.. sounds like very bright hor? but actually there's not much different with my previous hair color.
color done.. time to straighten my hair! maybe i'll do it in few weeks time. have to spend money lagi.. byebye duit aku. =(
arghhhh.. class at 2pm later. but i might skip it cause im not feeling well.. due to av. =x
feeling uncomfortableeeeeee. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..
okay. its time to rest now, im sleepy again.

bai guan week. =D

back to coll

2010-05-24T23:41:00.010+08:00

update bloggie! short and simple. =)
today was my first day back to college! met my coll mates, miss them so much. awwwwww..
my first class was at 8am this morning, and i forced myself to woke up so that i wont be late. arghhhhhhh i hate morning class alot because i cant wake up on time, and my brain usually wont function during morning hour. thats bad. -_-
we went to cafeteria and had our breakfast during break time. trying to fill our stomach with lots of foods cause we wont be able to have our lunch since we were busy having class from 11am to 5.30pm, NON-STOP mode. danggg.
i wonder whos the one who plan our timetable? can i just change it myself? its sucks lar wei. headache.
one more thing.. can i change those tutors as well!? i dont like them lar weiss. aduhhhhhh lagi headache. they are so strict and i dont like the way they talk too, macam superb lan ci + ba bi. dislike you, you, you and you. yeaa YOU ALL.
just starting of the class edi ask us to buy this buy that.. have to buy textbooks lar, statute books lar, blablabla books lar, notes lar. oh yeaa, have to start doing assignment soon. aiyoyorr.. T T
tomorrow have to wake up early too. class at 8am again..
the only thing that im happy is i get to use my DSLR Canon 450d cause we have Basic Photography course in this semester! ngek ngek. can snap pictures! wyeeee snap snap snap~ xoxo
but overall still.. ahem.. speechless.

*you make me wanna say oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.. OhhMyyGosh!*

i miss my holidays! i miss yumcha days!
outing please? sobb. =(

happy birthday =)

2010-05-22T12:31:00.012+08:00

22nd May 2010 today.. guess what.. its my feipo's aka celeste chan chooi ching birthday!
Happy 19th Birthday To You Dear Feipo Chan ~ muacks
feipo is currently studying at hawaii.. a country which is far far away from here.. sigh..
this is the first time im not there with her during her birthday.. cant wish her face to face, cant talk touch or hug her, cant celebrate with her.. sobbbb..
i think feipo's baobei aka angel and her friends will celebrate with her, hope she can enjoy her big day.. =D
sorry ya.. i didnt get you any present.. i dont know what to buy for you! arghhhhhhhh.. can i owe you first? i wanna choose your present together with you.. so.. faster come back please! i miss you alot.

dear feipo:
qin ai de feipo, wo hen xiang ni. ni zai na li guo de hao ma? kan ni xie gei wo de email, ni ying gai shi guo de hai bu cuo. zhi dao ni mei tian dou hen mang, you hen duo gong ke yao zuo, ye mang zhe da gong. suo yi kan bu dao ni shang xian, wo ke yi li jie lar.. ke shi xi wang ni neng mei tian dou reply wo de mail, hao ma? =) jin tian shi ni de sheng ri, bao qian wo mei neng he ni yi qi du guo. ke shi, wo xiang xin ni de peng you men hui bang ni qing zhu.. xi wang ni ke yi guo de hen kai xin, guo yi ge hen te bie de sheng ri. 19 sui ler, zhang da lor! lao de lor! xia ci kan dao ni de na shi hou, bu zhi dao ni hui bian cheng zen yang le ne? ying gai hen da bian hua ba, bian cheng bu shi yi qian de na ge feipo ler.. bu dong yao shuo shen me, zhi shi zhi dao zi ji hen xiang nian ni. zai na li yao hao hao zhao gu zi ji ar, bu yao rang wo dan xin. take care dear feipo, i miss you much. ❤

~~i feel lonely without you..~~ =)

need you now

2010-05-20T17:55:00.005+08:00

date: 20th May 2010
day: Thursday
mood: okay

hmmmm... dont know what to write right now.. just wanna update my bloggie with some stuffs.
college has reopen since monday.. but i dont feel like going. cause usually there's nothing to do on week 1. i dont wanna go there and waste my time. so.. i decided to ponteng for the first week. imma good gal. =D
listening to the song "Need You Now" by Lady Antebellum..
i like this song very much. maybe because it represent my current's feeling? hmmmmm.. no idea.
flashback flashback.. i missed those memories.

woN uoY deeN

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now (wait)
Ooo, baby, I need you now

Need You Now

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dear bloggie

2010-05-04T22:19:00.004+08:00

last post was on 10th of March, and the date for today is 4th of May.
didn't update my blog for months.. faint. @.@
i have no idea what to post right now. so i guess i'll cincai crap something out will do.
just to make my blog alive for awhile. hahas.

holiday mood started since last month, 15th April. and i spent all my holiday hanging out with friends. Non-Stop. xD
my sleeping time was totally upside down. people usually sleep at night, and wake up early in the morning. but i usually sleep during midnight and wake up around noon. i'm like a vampire now. active during night and half dead in the morning, ngekngek.

i went to Port Dickson with weng chun and his coll mates last weekends. it was quite fun. but.. because of something and something else, my mood was ruined. aiksss.. im big square, just forgot those small matter thingy. =D
few days ago, i just came back from Penang with another group of friends. totally enjoyed the trip a lot. some of them even went to Mois Club, syok lar them. i went to Autocity instead of Mois. see imma good girl. muahahas.
oh yaa, i drove my friend's car too. its a BMW, cool! just help him to drove for a distance since he was tired. ;P

errrrr.. im going to seremban this coming weekends! not trip, but work. for those who likes to dota very much, please join SMM Grand National Dota Tournament 2010! yeaapp. Dota Tournament is going to start from this week at Seremban and other places. for more info please refer to www.smm.net.my. ;P the champion in this competition will get 50k cash, wow.. $.$

okay.. time to limteh! tatas guys. will update my blog soon if i'm free. ciaoz. xD

;]

2010-03-10T23:32:00.002+08:00

2nd semester result release tomorrow !
gan jiongsss ;P
good luck to all peoples.
and also to those Spm candidates.
All Da Best To Us *winks ;)

clubbbssss

2010-03-05T14:12:00.003+08:00

Thursday night a.k.a ladies night, Maison again. ;P
Went there with chun to celebrate his friends burffday.
forgot the names cause there's too many people. paise guys.
really had so much fun with them, keep dancing non-stop.
managed to dance awhile at dance floor, then we spent most of the time upstairs.
its packed laa. super duper packed ! sighh, cant stand it.
hmmmmm.. met some new leng lui friends.
just realized that most of the Tarc-ian were Maison's kaki. -_____________-"
almost everyone i met there were from Tarc College. Tarc quite popular huh? hahas.
First time got out from the club before 3a.m.
Ishhhhhhh.. that the only things im not satisfied last night. =(
woowoowowwooow. yest i drove chun's car. NERVOUS ! x0
we got some info from friends that the way back to jln kuching had road block.
thats da reason why i drove home. hehe
luckily the police didn't stop us down. phewwww ~
reached home around 4a.m. in da morning. 2night gonna be a o k a y night. LOL

i wanna watch movie err ! 72 tenants of prosperity !
movies kaki, anyone? o.o

d a n g

2010-03-04T13:49:00.003+08:00

date: 04/03/2010
day: thursday
time: 2.00pm
mood: bad

damn you. don't feel like having a conversation with you at all.
the way u talked, the way u responded, pissed off !
i thought you already changed it.
but i'm so wrong. u never change. u are still doing the same thing.
think carefully before you say something out please.
sometimes act like you care alot, sometimes act like none of your business.
do you really have to speak like this? if yes, please lar stop talking to me.
your friends can endure your attitude, but not me.
thought we can have a chat nicely. but now? not anymore.
aikss. dont know what to say anymore. Speechless.

happy day

2010-02-09T23:52:00.005+08:00

12p.m.
had a nightmare! hak sei ngor.. -.-
forgot what da dream was about, just feel like crying after i woke up T T
sore throat-ing.. so drank a cup of 'gok fa'.. then dragronfruit juice.. water.. waterr and waterrrrrrr..
never had my breakfast cause too full edi.. LOL lame

1p.m.
watched tv.. p713,714,616
music music music... and cartoon ! keke
waiting for my meimei back from school, have to go Brem Mall to take my dress
wualala~ intro some nice song 1st
:: Cry Me Out by Pixie Lott ::
:: If We Ever Meet Again by Katy Perry ft Timbaland ::
:: Who I Am by Nick Jonas ::
:: Did It Again by Shakira ::
:: One Time by Justin Bieber ::
hope you guys like it ;D

4p.m.
gao dim everything, time to go out..
i've got my dress.. kaka.. but the size damn small, very very fit..
so i have to remain my body size, if grow fat abit then habis..! *pressure pressure* @.@
after that straight to Pav with chun, acc him to buy his CNY clothes
but..... all da things that he want was out of stock.. unlucky ler boy
next time if you guys wanna buy clothes must buy earlier ler, dont wait til last minute.. cant buy anything gar x3

6p.m.
when we're on our way to sg wang, ternampak edmunddd~ xD
he wanna go home.. but too bad he met me, frannie aka the dai-ga-jie
no choice, have to teman me gaigai 1more round, ngekngek !
walked here walked there.. only bought some clothes.. others all no size, no stock blablabla..
wuuuuuu.. what a bad day T T

9p.m.
at last.. went home, lols..
walked whole day buy only got soooooo little things.. beh syiok
bun loi wanna go for dinner kat kepong.. tapi raining..
bo mood edi.. ! went home without dinner.. LOL
no breakfast no dinner.. waaooow im G O D ! -.-

12a.m.
post until here.. nothing to continue nymore.. o.o
bla..
blabla..
blablabla..
blablablabla..
blablablablabla..
blablablablablabla..
blablablablablablablablablablablablablablablablasssssssss !
tatas ;P

^^

2010-02-08T21:05:00.006+08:00

weeeeeeee~ CNY coming soon =D
kawan ku.. gals and boys, G R A B as many angpaos as you can !
and spend it all on me, wuakaka =x
hmmmmmmm.. going to Hap Chai on 14th for vacation
time to shop shop and shop til broke!
although it will be vry fun, but im sure i'll miss out many angpaos.. *sobbb*
okie larr.. nothing much to post bout CNY.. -skip-
Happy Chinese New Year To All ~ xDDDDD

random random:
these few days stay at home~ maybe you guys think that its B O R I N G..
BUT.. i've found "something" to do, thats why wont get bored~
whats that? nahhhhhhhh.. its secret ;P
cant wait to get back to coll life, i miss my dear friends !
miss chit chat-ing, miss yum cha-ing, miss da gei-ing, miss quarrel-ing, miss every-thing !
short sem gonna start soon.. means i gonna get my result soon
hope everyone can pass with flying colors! nervous nervoussss *gulppp..*

woolala ~ continue my drama.. *winks*
I - M I S S - M Y - F E I P O - C H A N - V E R Y - M U C H ! xOxO

danggggg !

2010-02-04T15:05:00.003+08:00

damnnnnnnnnnn tired ler wei..
last night play mahjong with yee them til midnite
sumore didnt eat dinner.. stomach being empty for da whole day
my body gonna spoil soon !

yorr sumthing's wrong with my ipod, cannot play games anymore..
mou dun dun sot plak edii.. mood down ~
sooooo stupid.. duno what problem.. zzzz !

boring boring boring..
why my holiday can be so boring?
kawan ku.. mana lu semua... T.T
ask me out lar plox ! bosan memangg

dannnnnggg.. random post !
cincai update -.-

random

2010-01-30T19:52:00.003+08:00

stay at home whole day
because of my eyess.. swollen eyes !
both side bengkak edi due to not enough sleep
don't dare to go gaigai with my mama n mei.. sobb
sleep for whole afternoon, and online for the whole nite.. boring life !
papa's coming back tomorrow..
ipod.. handphone.. cant wait to see them
alahhhh.. mood still haven fully recover yet sienz
dangg, im bored bored and bored...
ask me out ! or chat wif me ! =(

ohya, i think i'll remain my blog this way, damn lazy to put pics
B I B L E B L O G ! -.-

W T F

2010-01-29T21:20:00.004+08:00

had real fun @ Maison with my friends and others last night..
met new peoples and danced whole night non-stop, really really enjoyed it a lot.. freaking awesome
thought 2day gonna be a good day. since we had finished our exams and enjoyed kaokao yest
but.. something bad happened.. and it ruined everything
my fren's car went missing.. just outside my condo..
we realized that when i drove her out to take her car
both of us were shocked, worried.. and we reported to the police station..
i've no idea that such things will happen, couldn't think of anything else that moment
so sad and felt guilty cause i'm the one who ask her to park outside since visitor's parking was full
aikksss.. the feelings.. it sucksss !

dunno who the hell had stolen it ! damn !
there's so many nice car parked out there you mn stole, but stole my fren's car !? deng lei gor fai !!
im gonna curse u kaokao ! FUCK YOU !!

dear fren, i'm sorry that things like this happened..
dont know what to say anymore...
except "sorry"

everything was ruined ! shyttt !

....

2010-01-26T15:28:00.002+08:00

mun sei ngor laaa...
dou yi ga dou mei duk dou shu, sei mn sei !?
ting yat zao hai zui hao ya yat la, ngor dei jau zi you lor ~
bat guo.. mn zhi ting yat yap dou hui yiu se dit mat yeh..
yi ga zhoi mn duk, ngor yat ding sei kiao kiao ! T.T
public relations.. dou hai hou nan, hou nan..
ngor geng yin under-estimate hui ! aiksss..
zhong yao hou duo chapter.. deng lei gor fei ! #@!%@&^%
zhen hai fatt mou lor.. geng bun mou xem qingg..
peng you mun mn zhi zhou gan dit meh lei?
hou xiong chut hui arr.. gao meng! @.@
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lolss..ape tu kat atas? wads that? shen me lai de?
obviously its a canto-post la budakk..
try to guess what i wrote up there, hahass..
p/s: pls do not laugh me, trying to improve my canto.. -.-

._.

2010-01-25T13:45:00.002+08:00

monday.. eat buku..
tuesday.. eat buku-buku..
wednesday.. go exam..
thursday.. go happy..
friday.. continue happy-happy..
saturday.. go wet wet..
sunday.. family day..

now? Monday jer la kak.. -________-"
tunggu til wed you jau free de la
dipaksa tuk makan buku lagi.. kenyang sial ler wei !! T.T

gembira :)

2010-01-24T23:02:00.010+08:00

post pertama taip m'gunakan bhs malay..
ehhhh.. mungkin for fun? dak mencoba barang baru ;P
tiba2 t'ingat lagu yg ku mau cari lama dulu
sampai kat u-tube.. menaipkan nama artist..
mungkin dah salah artist kut, tak dpt lagu tu..
aikksss.. ter-rasa sedikit sad pulak.. :(
pd masa tu, i ternampak nama "yuna"
seorg artist malay, sgt famous? i-think-so.
dan nama lagu ditulis bawah tuu.. "dan sebenarnya"
aku click-kan-nya.. rasa mungkin tu lah lagu yg ku sdg cari
m'dengar melodinya.. memang betol..
gembira sial ~ xD
lagu ni.. memang sedap sgt, suara yuna merdu betol !
ter-in-love dgn lagu ni.. ❤
masa kebelakangan ni.. suka sgt pd malay lagu - acoustic version
terutama lagu drpd zee avi, skrg giliran yuna
envy-nya.. semua org yg ada bakat dlm musik
mereka m'gunakan instrument guitar
hebat sungguh ! ku ingin coba juga.. jikalau ada peluang x)
hmmm.. introkan lagu2 yg sedap kpd kalian, lagu eng dan bm juga
harap you will sukakan-nya :D

- bitter heart by zee avi -
- kantoi by zee avi -
- dan sebenarnya by yuna -
- blue sands by yuna -
- deeper conversation by yuna -

enjoy semua lagu tuu~
currently: of course sdg dengarkan lagu yuna ;D

random

2010-01-24T02:29:00.003+08:00

going to transform into a zombie soon..
didn't have a good rest since last year
wth i'm doing whole day?
just sitting infront of the pc and online non-stop..
danngg..! it's stupid
but.. couldn't control myself ler..
kena pc's virus edi... gosssssh !!
ohya.. sudd addicted in dota again..
p/s: im not a pros, but a noob.. hahaha
just play for fun ler..
i think will quit l4d2 for a time..
and put more effort in dota after my exam
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLs...
i'm totally crazy.. yeaaa i am -.-

okie la.. time to tido..
just write some stupid stuffs before i go to bed..
nites people ! xD

B.A.N.G.S

2010-01-23T02:55:00.007+08:00

woohoo~ another good good day
i've done my drama exam! happy with it..
since.. i don't feel like sleeping right now, and i'm so damn free..
i decided to post something bout my band - BANGS!
p/s: fay, this is specially for you haha.. [gam dong mou gam dong mou..!? xDD]

well.. what to write ler? T h i n k - i n g . . . . . .

THE - I N T R O ' S
ehh... first, starts with how we meet each other?
we joined a competition and were asked to form a band in music 2 you society
and i shall skip the process of "how we find our team members"
no idea what to write in this part..
because of something and something else, we were fate to be together ~ xD

THE - N A M E ' S
why our band will be named as BANGS? a good question... IDK -.-
just remembered we were lack of time and couldn't think of any good names that moment, so.. i just simply crap a name out for my leader. since there's no any other suggestions and comments...
c o n c l u s i o n : "BANGS" was formed! =D

THE - M E M B E R ' S
a very brief intro's to "BANGS" team members..
[ F a y ] as "BANGS" v o c a l i s t + g u i t a r i s t

[ K e l v i n ] as "BANGS" b a s s i s t
[ J a s o n ] as "BANGS" k e y b o a r d i s t
[ J i a J i a ] as "BANGS" d r u m m e r
these are the V.I.P in our band, "BANGS" da best !

THE - S O N G ' S
waaow.. lots of choices at the beginning..
but i think most of it were fay's idea.. lol
after a long long long looooooooong discussion...
the very first song that we played - B l e e d i n g L o v e ❤
more and more improvement after jamming for a few times..
and.. i fall in ❤ with Bleeding Love's kek dai version
a very unique version which created by BANGS~ xD

p/s: do not underestimate fay's singing skill, he's good~ ;P

THE - C O M P E T I T I O N ' S
19/12/2009 - our B i g D a y
[ Mini Unplugged V ] the competition that we took part in it
the competitors were strong.. and they all did a very good job
well.. same to BANGS too, san fu sai lei dei la ! =D
although we didn't get the first top 3 [*due to my gan-jiong-ness.. -.-], but we manage to get a consolation prize
we had lotsa fun and sweet memories on that day
*clapsclaps* to BANGS.. Congrats~! kekekeke..

THE - P E R F O R M A N C E S '
We BANGS were invited to perform in TARC @ X'mas fiesta
our first performance' 09.. wyeepie~
nervous nervous.. many people were looking at us.. *keep swt-ing, keep keep swt-ing
but luckily i manage to control my beat, and the overall performance was good !
hehe.. luckily didn't ruin everything.. hou choi hou choi..
hope we will have the chance to perform again, feel sgt syiok weiiiss.. xP

THE - M E M O R I E S '
Memories that we had been together ~

-- During Competition --

-- Pictures of Us --

-- CHEESE ~ xD --

-- BANGS' team members --

-- Our Signatures --

That's all bout BANGS' 09

coming up next : BANGS' 10 ~ xD
T o B e C o n t i n u e . . .

update

2010-01-21T16:39:00.005+08:00

hmmm.. notice that my blog really looks like a B i b l e
only text, thats all ~ xD
but.. what to do?
seldom take pics.. and lazy to edit this edit that, blablablablass..
thats why every post only come out with words.. words and lotsaaa words !
maybe should try to put on some pics to decorate my blog..
but.. not now la weiss.
still having exams, no mood to do all these stupid stuffs
sooo.. paise ler people. my blog have to remain this way for a period..
continue to read my lame boring BIBLE first laa -.-

time to eat books ! tata.. =x

aaaaa

2010-01-20T17:11:00.002+08:00

damn damn damn..!!
introduction to drama is damn hard for me
need to study drama play, sumore need to memorize so many things
TMD. head gonna explode soon..
i will try my best to pass it, don't wanna see that teacher anymore..
GOD BLESS ME !

shyttttttt !

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2010-01-20T01:28:00.002+08:00

random post:

feels weird, this is weird
and i don't like it at all
weird thinking, weird feeling, everything's weird
maybe i shouldn't do that anymore
maybe i should stop it before it becomes worse
no matter what.. hope i will and can do it
never ever do that again
ends.

ahaha !

2010-01-19T22:01:00.003+08:00

woots~ 2more subjects left!
2 more weeks.. just 2 more weeks and i'm free~
introduction to drama on this fri.. and public relation on next wed, that's all !
gonna start my sem break soon, can't wait for it
ohh yaaaa don't have any time for training section today, issh ishhhh !!
but nvm.. we'll do it on friday, straight after exam.. waaaooow !
currently youtube-ing..
"Doesn't Mean Anything by Alicia Keys" drum covers
damnnnnn cool ler wei xD
im so fall in love with drums! addicted to it.. ohhh goshhhh..
hope i can have my very own drum set soon..
maybe.. someday.. or years.. if i have money.. and a place to put it -.-
ehhhhhhhhh.. end here first
continue youtube-ing.. kaka

drummsssss.. i'm lovin' it ! ❤

bored !! ;(

2010-01-13T16:46:00.005+08:00

oh my oh my..
i'm....... soooooooo... BORED!
2molo is my eng exam..
well, i think nothing to prepare for it
just get a good rest tonight.. keep my mind clear
and.... freestyle and crap anything i can in essay ;P
arrghhhhhh i dont have the mood to study tamadun islam!
so many weird weird thingy need to memorize
dharmasastra? rig veda? arthasastra? varnasrama?
ishh.. damn blur now -.-
spent my whole day on piano and comics, ahaha..
haihh... still got lotsa essay waiting for me
but still i dont have any rasa at all, lazy to touch it
maybe not yet last minute, thats why still very relax lolss ~
hope i can ~~read~~ eat everything in da book before i get into the exam hall on sat..
bless me laaaa.. swt

~~hardworking-ing~~ sien-ing -.-
im goin to jusco lata !
wanna refill my pencil box with lots of ~~stuffs~~ weapons! before exam, gagagaga

good luck ..

2010-01-13T01:53:00.009+08:00

recently, some friends are facing some love problemss..
feel sad and unhappy for what had happened after listening to their stories..
things can happen very quickly, but at the same time, it changes quickly too
its sooooo.. unpredictable.. and you'll never know whats going to happen next
just wanna give some advices here..
love is just a part of your life, don't treat it like... its everything
you'll face many problems of course.. try to solve it if you can
but if you can't... face it, and just let it go
it doesn't means that you're trying to escape from reality
but it shows that you can really put down everything, and start again
maybe you'll feel that why so hard to overcome this feeling and all stuffs
its because you cant accept things changed so fast
things that you usually do.. things that you already used to it
and you stop everything in a sudden..
you'll feel weird, feel uneasiness, worry bout them, missing them..
memories appeared in your mind, flashback every moment that you guys had been together..
of course it hurts alot, and no matter how hard you try, you just couldnt stop thinking about it
try to control yourself, don't let it over take your mind..
you cry like hell, scream like hell, suffer like hell, pain like hell, heart bleeds like hell
but things are still the same..
they cant feel the pain that you're facing now, or wont even feel anything
they wont care how you feel, for those who already don't care
you still have to go on. no matter how hard it is, you gotta stay strong..
do not try to do something stupid that hurt yourself, it just show that you're immature
do you think before what will your parents and friends feel?
never ever do something that will let yourself regret, not worth it at all
try to find something to do, make yourself busy
you'll find that its more easier to pass your time..
when you really found your right ones, what happen now its just a small matter..
remember.. don't decide your another half too fast..
who knows you'll meet more people who is better than them in your life
take it as a lesson, think positively..
it sucks. but still i have to say
let it go.. and just go with the flow
time will heals everything. good luck !

update

2010-01-12T23:48:00.003+08:00

omggggg....
final exam on thurs but i haven't start to do revision..
not even touching the book..
ki siaooooo !!
hope time pass faster !
i wanna enjoy during sem break
wanna clubb kaokao !
wanna play kaokao !
wanna sleep kaokao !
wanna crazy kaokao !
everything kaokao ;P

- 2010 -

2009-12-29T20:53:00.002+08:00

2 more days.. 2009 going to end soon
this year.. consider a bad year for me
many unhappy things happened
unhappy cases, memories... and blablabla stuff
but in the same time, i learned lots of things...
ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... ehmmmmm..
hope 2010 gonna be a good year for me! =D

btw.. i pass my drum exam! wyeepiee~
good for me.. jiajiaaaaa.. jiayou !!

17 signs you ❤ someone

2009-11-08T13:41:00.002+08:00

SEVENTEEN:
You look at their profile constantly.

SIXTEEN:

When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.

FIFTEEN:

You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again.

FOURTEEN:

You walk really slow when you're with them.

THIRTEEN:

You feel shy whenever they're around.

ELEVEN:

When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.

TEN:

You smile when you hear their voice.

NINE:

When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.

EIGHT:

You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.

SEVEN:

They're all you think about.

SIX:

You get high just from their scent.

FIVE:

You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.

FOUR:

You would do anything for them!

THREE:

While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.

TWO:

You were so busy thinking about that person, you didn't notice number twelve was missing

ONE:

You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

...

2009-11-07T13:39:00.004+08:00

many memories appeared in my mind
again again n again
everything changed
and it will not be the same anymore
never wana see you
never wana talk to you
never wana contact with you
never ever know you
im childish.. yea i know
but i just couldn't do it
just like what you did
but.. that's me

we are not the same

you're everything to someone

2009-11-06T23:49:00.007+08:00

someone is very proud of you
someone is thinking of you
someone cares about you
someone misses you
someone wants to talk to you
someone wants to be with you
someone hopes you aren't in trouble
someone is thankful for the support you have provided
someone wants to hold your hand
someone hopes everything turns out all right
someone wants you to be happy
someone wants you to find them
someone is celebrating your successes
someone wants to give you a gift
someone think you are a gift
someone hopes you are not too cold, or too hot
someone wants to hug you
someone loves you
someone wants to lavish you with small gifts
someone admires your strength
someone is thinking of you and smiling
someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on

someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun
someone thinks the world of you
someone wants to protect you
someone would do anything for you
someone wants to be forgiven

someone is grateful for your forgiveness
someone wants to laugh with you about old times
someone remembers you and wishes you were there
someone needs to know that your love is unconditional
somebody values your advice
someone wants to tell you how much they care
someone wants to stay up watching old movies with you
someone wants to share their dreams with you
someone wants to hold you in their arms
someone wants you to hold them in your arms
someone treasures your spirit
someone wishes they could stop time because of you
someone can't wait to see you
someone wishes that things didn't have to change
someone loves you for who you are
someone loves the way you make them feel
someone wants to be with you
someone hears a song that reminds them of you
someone wants you to know they are there for you
someone stayed up all night thinking about you
someone is alive because of you
someone is wishing that you would notice them
someone wants to get to know you better
someone believes that you are their soul mate
someone wants to be near you
someone misses your guidance and advice
someone values your guidance and advice
someone has faith in you
someone trusts you
someone needs your support

someone needs you to send them this letter
someone needs you to have faith in them

someone needs you to let them be your friend

someone will cry when they read this

Have you found your someone ?

N o B o d y

2009-10-19T11:09:00.001+08:00

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to, to make me leave ya
I know what you're thinking
Baby why aren't you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know it's not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can't we just, just be like this
Cause it's you that I need and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way I
I feel when I'm with you, no one will ever do

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so
You know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want no body, body
I don't want no body, body

Honey you know it's you that I want, it's you that I need
Why can't you see~

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me
So tell me why can't it be
Please let me live my life my way
Why do you push me away
I don't want nobody nobody nobody nobody but YOU